Tuesday, August 23, 2016

My Homecoming Talk

I'm home now, and I wrote this talk for Sunday. Unfortunately, I got up and changed a lot of it, but I think it's pretty similar, so if you weren't able to come, you can at least read what I had to say about my mission. :)

Warning: it's long.



Homecoming Talk                                   August 21, 2016
Almost exactly two years ago, I was sitting in the chapel of the church in Brigham City Utah, listening to my cousin give his farewell talk. Until that point people had asked me if I was going to serve a mission, and the answer was always a definite “NO WAY.” I had been at BYU for a year by then and my testimony had grown a ton and I knew that God loved me and the gospel was true. And I didn’t need to serve a mission to share that with others, I was going to be the very best member missionary right here in my comfort zone. Thank you very much!

But, if you’ve lived, and I know you have, than you probably know that things don’t always go according to plan. So, while I was listening to that farewell talk, the Spirit decided to show me a glimpse of who I could be. He allowed me to see just for a second that I could be a missionary, and it might not be so bad. And then, this always stresses me out, He said, “Maybe you should pray about it.” I hate when the Spirit says that! But obviously, I took His advice, and prayed about it, and here I am, two years later, a return missionary. And I wouldn’t change a thing.

I am so grateful that God gave me the chance to serve in the Washington Tacoma mission. It really has been the best 18 months so far. To give you some insight into what the WA-TAC is like, picture the most beautiful place. Picture tall evergreen trees, with other tall trees covered in moss. Picture a view of Mount Rainier from some places, a view of Mount St. Helens in others, and a view of the Olympic Mountain Range from somewhere else. There’s the Puget Sound with the sun setting on it and the Tacoma Narrows Bridge. Imagine the freezing cold west coast, with lots of sand dollars and lots of wind. Think of all the flowers that you’ve never seen before and put them in one place. Imagine all the blackberries you could ever want, plus some! Washington is beautiful. It’s less beautiful sometimes though when you see the rain, and more rain, and more rain for months on end. And dark nights, that start at 4 in the afternoon. Sometimes we walked in the middle of nowhere past cows and llamas during the day, and then at night, we wouldn’t be able to see a few inches in front of us. Imagine wearing a rain jacket and rain boots for what seems like forever. Imagine walking into a yard and being chased by 5 ginormous dogs. Something I didn’t know before my mission was that people in Washington like their dogs a lot more than they like people. We knocked on doors for at least 2 hours a day, every day for 18 months. Imagine all the people you could meet if you did that. Imagine all the stories you could hear. A mission is physically exhausting from walking so much your whole body hurts and you fall into bed as soon as you finish planning. It’s also spiritually exhausting because we are learning and studying and praying and bearing your testimony and feeling the Spirit so strongly every day. It can be emotionally exhausting when one person after another listens to your testimony and still decides to shut the door and tell you no thanks. Or when you see one of your recent converts decide not to come back to church, even after the miracles they’ve seen in their lives. A mission also brings a lot of joy as you teach someone and everything just makes sense to them, like it does to you. And there is continued joy as you watch them change their lives and turn them around so that they can be baptized. Or the happiness that comes as you see a family prepare to go to the temple together. A mission is full of experiences and wonderful things, it’s also full of trials and hardship, but there must be opposition in all things. I wish I could just tell you everything about my mission, every funny story, every sad story, every spiritual experience, and all the miracles that I saw, but I’m just going to have to stick to a few good chunks of my mission. For the rest you’ll just have to go read my blog. That’s where all the stories are.

One of the biggest things I learned on my mission is that God can make a lot more of us than we can imagine. He has big plans for us, and sometimes it can be hard to believe that. One of the major reasons why I didn’t want to serve a mission was because I was afraid of everything. And my confidence in myself wasn’t very strong. I was worried I wouldn’t be able to handle the work, the long days, the talking to literally every person you see, the being with a companion 24/7, the walking, the food, the teaching, everything! Everything about missionary work sounded like something I couldn’t do. And honestly, if it all depended on me, I wouldn’t be able to. But I learned quickly that I wasn’t on my own, that God was going to help me and give me what I needed to accomplish what He asked me to do.

One of my absolute favorite stories in the Book of Mormon is in Ether 12. Moroni is worried about the “awkwardness” of his hands. So, he’s writing part of the Book of Mormon and he is worried that people are going to make fun of what he wrote. That they won’t take it seriously because he’s not a good writer. He knows that his talents are in speaking, not in writing, and so he’s worried about this job that God has given him to write and put together the Book of Mormon. He even compares himself to other great writers. I often feel the same way, but God knows what He’s doing.

This scripture is probably familiar to you, but God’s response to Moroni was this: “If men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.”

Well, another giant thing I learned on my mission is that I am weak. Something about missionary work really reveals all of your flaws. Constantly you are realizing and recognizing all the things that you aren’t good at. Maybe it’s just me, maybe other people don’t have that happen to them, but I know that I was made VERY aware of my weaknesses on my mission. But I also became VERY aware of the help I was getting from my loving Father in Heaven.

My very favorite ward that I served in was kind of an example of this. About 7 months into my mission I got a transfer call from my mission president telling me that I was going to be transferred to Winlock. (I had never heard of Winlock before.) And not only was I being transferred to Winlock, but I was also going to be training. Up until that point I had been thinking I was getting the hang of missionary work. In fact, I was probably a bit prideful and felt like I was ready to train. But when I was told that I was going to take over a new area in the middle of nowhere while also helping a new missionary adjust to the mission I realized that I knew nothing about missionary work! I definitely wasn’t ready to do this! I was really stressed out and actually ended up asking my zone leaders for a blessing to help me prepare!
I looked in my journal while preparing for this talk, and a few of the things that I was told during that blessing stuck out to me to share with you. I was told: “Your Heavenly Father is aware of the anxiety you feel, and how nervous and stressed this calling makes you. He knew it would make you feel this way, but He trusts you. He is proud of you and the effort you put into your missionary work.” Now, that blessing was directed towards me, and it’s not scripture, BUT I think it can be applied to all of His children! Heavenly Father is aware of us. He knows what we’re going through. He knows how we feel. He understands that some of the trials we go through are hard for us. He also knows, that we can make it. It’s important to always remember that everything that God does is to help us grow and to bring us happiness. HE LOVES US!

Something else I was told during this blessing was that “the trials you will have in the months ahead will stretch you and help you to grow.”

The trials that I had mostly came because of my weaknesses that I quickly became aware of. But, as I relied on the Lord and worked hard, we saw miracle after miracle after miracle and both I and my companion grew and learned so much in the two transfers that we were together. Those miracles didn’t come from us, they came from God.

Which leads me to another thing that I learned on my mission. Something that just astounded me every time, was that God is in control. As a missionary, there were situations that I had where I realized that I was in the right place at the right time. For some reason, plans would go wrong, and we’d end up somewhere, and we’d run into someone who needed us right then. And if we hadn’t been there, we never would have met them.

There were areas that I served in and companions that I was with that proved to me that God is in the details. Missionary work is all about bringing souls to Christ. A lot of the time, those souls are people that we met and helped to bring into the waters of baptism. Sometimes, those souls are members that have already been baptized, but still needed help finding their way to the Savior. Other times, those souls are us, the missionaries. Most of the time, it’s all of those groups. God loves all of His children, and He puts all of us in the path of others that we can help.

What I’m truly grateful for, is that God allowed me to participate in this great work. I believe that He could do it all on His own. He doesn’t really need us. Honestly, we’re basically teenagers! We don’t know what we’re doing! But, He gave me the chance to watch with a front row seat, as He changed lives. And I got to do my small part.

There is a story in the New Testament, Mark 12:42-43, where an old widow goes to the temple to give her fast offering or something like that, and she donates two mites, which isn’t very much, but it’s also all that she had. And Jesus Christ tells His disciples to use her as their example, for “this poor widow hath cast more in, than all they which have cast into the treasury: For all they did cast in of their abundance; but she of her want did cast in all that she had.” Sometimes, we don’t have a lot to offer. Sometimes all we have to give is that we are willing to serve a mission and hope for the best. But God will take those two mites that we have to give and make them more than we can imagine. He’s grateful for everything we offer.

The last thing I wanted to talk about is Jesus Christ, and His role in my life and my mission. I have a very strong testimony of the Atonement of Jesus Christ. I know without a doubt that He lives and that He heals and that He is the light and the life of the world. He is the Creator, He is Almighty. He is Amazing. He is the Great I Am. His Grace covers us all. He is also my Friend, and my Brother, and He walks beside me. My mission was a lot easier than I thought it was going to be. I was blessed with a clear mind, energy, and more strength than I thought I had. But there was one point in my mission where I was having a more difficult time. My dad had just been diagnosed with cancer, and I was trying to sign up for classes, and figure out how to pay for school, while also doing missionary work. We had also just taken over a second ward, and were trying to figure out how to balance both. People have been in tougher situations before, but I was stressed out. I was sitting in sacrament meeting one day, thinking about all of this, and worrying, when I had an image pop into my mind. Jesus Christ was sitting right beside me. He didn’t say anything, but I could tell that He cared about me, and wanted to help me. He had His hand stretched out as if He was waiting for me to give Him something. He just sat there patiently and lovingly waiting. Finally, I gave in and reached into my pocket and pulled out a rock and handed it to Him. He kept waiting, so I reached into my pocket again and pulled out another rock, and another and another and another and kept handing them over to Him. And He willingly took every single one. This didn’t actually happen in real life, but it was a reminder to me that I can give ALL of my burdens to the Savior. That’s what He wants us to do. He will carry our load, He will make our burdens light. We have no reason to hold on to them. Over and over and over again I have felt the love of my Savior for me, I have relied on His strength and His grace so many times. I have to evaluate often if I’m trying to hold onto things that He can help me overcome, and doing that has helped me to help others do the same thing.

Our mission song was Amazing Grace, and it’s such a good song with so many good lines but my favorite part is the chorus that says “My chains are gone, I’ve been set free, my God my Savior has ransomed me, and like a flood His mercy reigns, unending love, amazing grace.”
Being a missionary, has given me a chance to gain a small understanding of that unending love that He has for me. Every time I was transferred, I met a ton of people, and loved every single one of them. I loved the members, I loved my investigators, I loved the strangers I met going out and about. Then I’d be transferred and I was positive that there wouldn’t be any room left in my heart for MORE people. But then I’d get there and I’d meet them, and just imagine all the little people in my heart squeezing together to make more room for more people to hop in. That’s what it felt like. All of a sudden, there was more room! Then, I’d go to the next area and think the same thing. And guess what, somehow they all fit! And now, my poor heart has a bajillion people inside of it, and it will probably just have to keep growing. Because I meet a lot of new people. Can you imagine how the Savior must have felt, when He was in the Garden of Gethsemane thinking and caring about each and every one of us individually, and making room in His heart for every single one of God’s children?
I am so grateful for Him and His unending love, and His amazing grace.

While I was taking the sacrament, the song “I Stand All Amazed” came into my mind and I decided to read the words. As I was reading them, I realized that this is my theme song! So, I’m just going to share those with you.

“I stand all amazed at the love Jesus offers me, confused at the grace that so fully he proffers me. I tremble to know that for me he was crucified, that for me, a sinner, he suffered, he bled and died.

I marvel that he would descend from his throne divine, to rescue a soul, so rebellious and proud as mine, that he should extend his great love unto such as I, Sufficient to own, to redeem, and to justify.

I think of his hands pierced and bleeding to pay the debt! Such mercy, such love and devotion can I forget? No, no, I will praise and adore at the mercy seat, until at the glorified throne I kneel at his feet.

Oh it is wonderful that he should care for me, enough to die for me. Oh, it is wonderful, wonderful to me!”

I know He lives. I know that He is the way. I know that the gospel of Jesus Christ has been restored and that we can live with our Father in Heaven again one day. I know that through faith, repentance, and baptism we can get on that path to our Father again. I know that as we stay on that path and keep growing and keep learning and keep relying on the Savior we can one day be with our families and our Heavenly Father forever and eternity. I know this is true. And I’m so grateful for that knowledge. In the name of Jesus Christ, amen. 




Monday, August 15, 2016

Sister Warburton's Final Report

(This was much cuter when she sent it, but I copied it the best I could.)



In 2012, one October at the end of the week,
A girl sat watching President Monson speak.
He had a lot of good things to say,
But one announcement made shouts of "hooray"!
They were changing the ages that sisters could go,
Age 19 for girls?  That just can't be so!
Well, the conference caused a boom for missions worldwide,
But this girl wasn't having it, she held to her pride.
"No way," said she, "I'll never serve, I'd rather sit."
She was afraid but never would admit it.

A few years later, with more experience, more faith, more love,
This girl still didn't want to go, but the Spirit gave her a shove
"You could do that," the Spirit said.  "Are you sure?" she thought.
"Positive, you're tough!  Don't say that you're not!"
Her list of fears was long:  talking, driving, dogs, and strangers,
Dark nights, weird foods, mean companions, and other dangers.
In 2014, two Octobers late with family around,
She opened her call and to her surprise found,
A request for Sister Warburton to go to the Northwest,
Washington, Tacoma, some told her it was the best.

She prepared and then she left.  To the MTC she went,
She learned a lot and by the end she knew what the gospel meant.
Well, she thought she did, but then she entered the field.
She knew the field was white, but the harvest wouldn't wield.
Her first stop was Belfair, a beautiful little place.
They taught a lot, but when baptism came up, they all said "no!" to her fact.
"That's just not right!  The gospel's true!  Why won't they hear?"
She learned that sometimes people would rather drink a beer.
Sometimes they don't want to commit, others are afraid,
Laziness is a common factor, and some think tithing can't be paid.
"Agency is a pain," she thought, "let's take it away!"
But she knows that' not how God wants it to be this day.
Three transfers in Belfair, and "success?"  Still none.
But she loved that place and the people were fun.
There are some some things in Belfair she learned:
How to talk to strangers, and no fear of dogs she earned.
Teaching and testifying, she did get better at,
And practicing her perfect love, she better, too, at that.

She never wanted to leave, but the time came to go,
Olympia was her next stop, she knew it would make her grow.
In the capital of Washington, they met some odd, odd people.
They worked REAL hard to get them underneath a steeple.
Diligence, patience, and humility were qualities she would gain.
While working hard through the summer months would definitely be a strain.
The blackberry harvest was fruitful, plums and cherries, too,
But for some reason baptisms wouldn't come, not even one or two.
"In the WA-TAC we baptize" just didn't seem quite right.
In her first five whole transfers, not a baptism was in sight.
But she kept working, and learning, and growing, and doing her best.
She kept the faith, and hope she had, and gave to God the rest.

When transfers came, she thought she'd stay, but God had other plans,
Banished to Winlock, the middle of nowhere, she'd never stand a chance,
Doubled in?  Training?  What the heck!  "I thought President liked me!"
"But I don't even trust myself to train way out there in the country!"
Sisters Philippi and Warburton arrived on Tuesday night,
From the start they were welcomed in, their future there looked bright.
It was a boonie area, that much was for sure,
Cows, chickens, dogs, lots of walking, no houses, no doors,
Three people a night, that's about how knocking went,
But memories were made and miracles heaven sent.
They focused on baptism, and for once it actually came,
She finally got to fill the font, it wasn't just a game.
From that day forward, she had more faith and hope,
She now knew baptisms come, and nothing could stop her, nope!
Winlock really was the best, she loved that Podunk town,
But God keeps things moving forward so she had to move around.

To Silverdale she went from there, back up to the North.
The differences:  more people, houses, less boonies, farms and so forth.
It was an adjustment, from middle of nowhere to Navy Base,
She found less people interested in talking about God in this place.
To be honest, she's still not totally sure why she was there,
But she's grateful God trusted Silverdale 6th to her care.

After one transfer she left again, back down South she went.
She was happy to find that to Elma she was being sent.
Back to small towns and boonie roads, what she was used to.
Talking to cows and walking long roads are things that she can do!
Elma is the "promised land" as the stake president likes to say,
She saw that there when she got to teach Lorraine.
Once again we decided to keep baptism on "da mind"
And when we did Lorraine wasn't hard to find.
She called us up and asked if she could be baptized right away
We said "of course!" and in two weeks came the day!
Later the next transfer, a member came up to us,
"Kaytee is my son's ex-girlfriend, she wants to be baptized too."
(There's more to the story, but rhyming really limits you.)
We began to teach Kaytee and she was just pure gold,
A handpicked daughter of God prepared to come into the fold.
Sister Warburton liked Elma, she seemed to fit right in,
But missions are about growth, so onto a different part of Washington.

Soundview was the last stop for her here in the WA-TAC
It was totally different, it hit her with a smack.
With no big city experience, she had to be retrained.
Shibe ibeviben libearned iba nibew libangibuage, ibit's ibinsibane!
Central was different, but she loved it anyways,
There were many people to talk to, it was a nice change.

All in all, when I look back on my mission,
Some core things stick right out:
I learned from the beginning that I am absolutely inadequate, of this I have no doubt
I'm really bad at teaching, and most of the time I still don't know what to do.
I've learned that on my own, this work could never go on.  But God's in control!  Phew!
I've learned that God could do this without me, but He loves me oh so much.
That He's given me this opportunity to serve and help and such.
He allows me to try to be an instrument in His hands.
And I feel grateful for my desire to help in this land.
In D&C 4, it says a desire to serve is all you need,
And faith, hope, charity, and love help to accomplish the deed.

I'm grateful to be a missionary, I'm grateful for God's faith in me.
I'm so glad to be in Washington and for all the miracles I've seen.
To end, I have a testimony of the gospel, I know that it is true.
Heavenly Father loves us all, that includes me and you.
I know my Savior lives, I know He died on the cross for me.
I'm grateful for Jesus Christ and His grace that makes me free.
I know Joseph Smith is a prophet, I know He was called of God.
The Book of Mormon is true, I prayed and I know it isn't a fraud.
The Priesthood is on the earth, restored in it's perfect form again.
Of these things I testify, in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.







Well, This is it.

I had a super duper last week. I really love being a missionary here! :) 

However, when I look back on my week I feel like last Tuesday was about 2 years ago, so the details may be fuzzy. 

Last Monday we had a sisters P-day at the mission home. That was so fun. I went to one of those almost 16 months ago when I was in Belfair and I really loved it because I was so isolated in the middle of nowhere, I never ever saw any sisters. So, we decided to plan one so that all the sisters could have some fun together. We mostly just sat and talked and ate food and made the best chocolate chip cookies ever. :) So, it was fun.

On Tuesday we had a fun exchange with Sister Monson and Sister Bird. (Who are in the picture above. Sister Bird is making the peace sign and has the black and white striped shirt. And Sister Monson has her hands on her face right next to her.) ((And yes, Sister Monson is related to President Monson..... just kidding, but I told everyone that she is his granddaughter for the whole day because it was fun.))

On Wednesday we had a zone meeting and all of the sisters in the zone dressed up as elders. That was funny. :) 



On Friday we went on a temple trip with all the departing missionaries. I'm the only sister going home, with 15 elders. So, I was companionless for a day. But it was more fun than I thought it would be. We went to the temple, then we went to lunch, and then we headed home. 



After the temple we went to our investigators WEDDING! It was great! :)
Then on Saturday Isaac got baptized! And that was also great! 

Later today I'm going to send ya'll my final report that talks all about everything I learned while on my mission so that will be my spiritual thought. 

I'm going home tomorrow. So, this is it, but I love ya'll! See you soon! 

Love, Sister Warburton